There are times when I feel like I know things. This feeling doesn't come often, but there are times (especially this week) when I feel like I know things about people that no one else knows or that I see things about people that no one else sees. I felt like this was happening all week. It happened at least four times and it is one of the most frustrating feeling in the world. It happened with someone associated with my family, it happened with someone that I used to be close to and am not close to at all anymore, it happened with some of my friends, and it even happened on one of my favorite television shows. Sometimes it isn't even that no one else sees it, it's just that all the people who should be seeing what you see completely miss it. Am I making sense?
The other day, while talking about this to someone very close to me, he accidently made me realize that these kinds of destructive people do not need any help being taken down. They will eventually be the cause of their own downfall. The ones who need to see the things that you see will see them and the ones who need to know what you know, will find them out without you telling them. All will be known in time.
But this also got me thinking. How many times do I encounter someone and not know them the way that others do? How many times do my friends and family go through this same frustration with me? I just have to hope that I am keeping an open eye and an open ear to what those that are close to me are saying.
Andddd...also I'm lame and didn't watch the superbowl. I should go to sleep now. Night. -xoxo
Coffee and Dessert
So today, I discovered the answer to a mind boggling question George and I have had for a long time:
Why do people always drink coffee with their dessert?
Every time we have gone to my aunt's house for a dinner party or whatever, they have always made a pot of coffee to serve with dessert. I see people at resteraunts order coffee with their desert. Neither one of us could figure out why this combination of things went together. Coffee was for morning. Desert is after dinner. Who decides that these two things belong together??
Today, I made some coffee in the afternoon because that's when I woke up, and Steph got out some cookie dough and offered me some. I wasn't about to turn down cookie dough. So I ate some, then without thinking, I took a sip of my coffee, which was still black and without the large amounts of creamer and sugar that I usually put in it. I was pleasantly surprised. The slightly bold and bitter taste of the coffee, perfectly balanced out the sweet taste of the cookie dough. My roommates followed suit and we unanimously agreed that coffee with sweets is awesome. If you haven't tried it, you should. They compliment each other.
Perhaps next week I will discover why people like to pair wine and cheese. Or why they pair celery and peanut butter. We will see. Goodnight!
Why do people always drink coffee with their dessert?
Every time we have gone to my aunt's house for a dinner party or whatever, they have always made a pot of coffee to serve with dessert. I see people at resteraunts order coffee with their desert. Neither one of us could figure out why this combination of things went together. Coffee was for morning. Desert is after dinner. Who decides that these two things belong together??
Today, I made some coffee in the afternoon because that's when I woke up, and Steph got out some cookie dough and offered me some. I wasn't about to turn down cookie dough. So I ate some, then without thinking, I took a sip of my coffee, which was still black and without the large amounts of creamer and sugar that I usually put in it. I was pleasantly surprised. The slightly bold and bitter taste of the coffee, perfectly balanced out the sweet taste of the cookie dough. My roommates followed suit and we unanimously agreed that coffee with sweets is awesome. If you haven't tried it, you should. They compliment each other.
Perhaps next week I will discover why people like to pair wine and cheese. Or why they pair celery and peanut butter. We will see. Goodnight!
"And that my friends, was a Meteor."
"I once thought you were a star for me to wish upon, but I was wrong." -The Rocketboys
I find myself singing this line of the song in my head quite often lately. Usually, this would mean that my ADD has kicked in, but this line has sort of become a reminder about how I choose to look at my relationship with God. Let me explain a little:
I have been struggling with anxiety lately (good thing I have to go to therapy for my theories of counseling class. haha.) over quiet a few things that are going on my life. I have no job, no money, and no idea how i'm supposed to support myself in the coming months. I'm always complaining to my mom and George and my roommates about how terrible I feel and what a failure I am because I can't find a job. I'm pretty sure I drive them completely crazy and for that I am sorry. But, it has resulted in anxiety and on occassion I will get a mild bout of depressed thoughts and feelings.
I always fail to consider the fact that not once in my entire life have I ever gone without. I've always had a roof over my head, food to eat, a bed to sleep in, a bathroom to shower in, more clothes than I could ever truly need, social support, love, and encouragement from others. So why all this anxiety and worrying? I honestly don't know. My mom and Jessica keep reminding me that I need to trust God and to know that he is going to take care of me. How hard could that be? For me, and for many others, I'm sure, it's much easier said than done.
That's where this song quote comes in. I have a tendency to treat God like I would a genie or santa claus. I expect him to provide me with a job and with what I want right when I want it, just because I prayed a prayer and because I'm his child. I say that i'm trusting him and that I'm being patient, but everytime I go into an anxious panic of applying for a million jobs, I always end up disappointed. Instead of keeping a healthy mindset and thanking him for all the times he has provided for me and for all the things he has given me, I focus on what I don't have or what I lack. I always blame myself or get down on myself for not being able to find a job. This causes anxiety and the whole cycle repeats itself. This one line from this song, though probably not really having anything to do with God, reminds me that God is not an object or a magical being that exists to grant my wishes. This probably seems really obvious and juvenile, but sometimes its the obvious or little things that I forget or just completely miss.
Now that i've sorted out my mess of thoughts, I think i'll go work on the pile of case studies and articles that need to get done. ;) This whole blogging thing isn't really all that bad after all. Later -xoxo
I find myself singing this line of the song in my head quite often lately. Usually, this would mean that my ADD has kicked in, but this line has sort of become a reminder about how I choose to look at my relationship with God. Let me explain a little:
I have been struggling with anxiety lately (good thing I have to go to therapy for my theories of counseling class. haha.) over quiet a few things that are going on my life. I have no job, no money, and no idea how i'm supposed to support myself in the coming months. I'm always complaining to my mom and George and my roommates about how terrible I feel and what a failure I am because I can't find a job. I'm pretty sure I drive them completely crazy and for that I am sorry. But, it has resulted in anxiety and on occassion I will get a mild bout of depressed thoughts and feelings.
I always fail to consider the fact that not once in my entire life have I ever gone without. I've always had a roof over my head, food to eat, a bed to sleep in, a bathroom to shower in, more clothes than I could ever truly need, social support, love, and encouragement from others. So why all this anxiety and worrying? I honestly don't know. My mom and Jessica keep reminding me that I need to trust God and to know that he is going to take care of me. How hard could that be? For me, and for many others, I'm sure, it's much easier said than done.
That's where this song quote comes in. I have a tendency to treat God like I would a genie or santa claus. I expect him to provide me with a job and with what I want right when I want it, just because I prayed a prayer and because I'm his child. I say that i'm trusting him and that I'm being patient, but everytime I go into an anxious panic of applying for a million jobs, I always end up disappointed. Instead of keeping a healthy mindset and thanking him for all the times he has provided for me and for all the things he has given me, I focus on what I don't have or what I lack. I always blame myself or get down on myself for not being able to find a job. This causes anxiety and the whole cycle repeats itself. This one line from this song, though probably not really having anything to do with God, reminds me that God is not an object or a magical being that exists to grant my wishes. This probably seems really obvious and juvenile, but sometimes its the obvious or little things that I forget or just completely miss.
Now that i've sorted out my mess of thoughts, I think i'll go work on the pile of case studies and articles that need to get done. ;) This whole blogging thing isn't really all that bad after all. Later -xoxo
Top Ten Tuesday
On a lighter note, I don't want my second ever blog post to be all serious and stuff, so now I would like to start a new tradition for my blog. I'll call it "Top Ten Tuesday". Today's top ten is going to consist of the top ten things that make me smile/ improve my day a little. Here goes:
10. Seeing old people holding hands
This always makes me smile. It gives me hope and reminds me that no matter what the statistics say and no matter how cynical the world is, Love is real and it is lasting. Not to mention it's just plain adorable.
9. Sonic Happy Hour
Because who doesn't like half priced soft drinks when you need it the most??
8. Coming Home to Roommates
This makes me thankful that I have amazing friends to share stories with and laugh with, no matter what kind of day i'm having. They always make me smile and definitely improve my day.
7. Quoting Anything Andy Samberg
Whether it's the "Threw it ground" video, Lonely Island, Hot Rod, etc., it always seems to make us laugh, thus improving our day.
6. Hearing a Song that matches your mood
Even if your mood is bad or angry, listening to a song that matches how you feel somehow helps heal you or make you better. It's almost like someone else is saying, "I know how you feel. I've been there." And if you're in a ridiculously good mood, well, it's just plain fun. As much as we all like to pretend we hate Ke$ha, who doesn't sing Tik Tok at the top of their lungs with the car windows down?
5. Seeing Jake kick Vienna off of the Bachelor
Oh wait, that hasn't happened yet. But it will make everyone smile when it does happen.
4. Running into someone unexpectedly
It's nice to run into people. Getting to smile and catch up on things always puts me in a better mood.
3.Cookie Dough
Need I say more??
2. Dance Parties
Not only a stress reliever and good exercise, it's a good way to find out who to dance next to when you go to formal so that you look better. ;)
1. Inside Jokes
No one else gets them. No one else laughs. But it makes your friendship with the other people in on the joke, that much better. Thus improving the day.
Sorry this list wasn't all that good. Hopefully I'll have a better one next week.
Also, Happy Groundhog Day! Puxatawnie Phil saw his shadow this morning...looks like six more weeks of winter. I'm okay with it. Means I can wear my new jacket a little longer. :) Night! -xoxo
10. Seeing old people holding hands
This always makes me smile. It gives me hope and reminds me that no matter what the statistics say and no matter how cynical the world is, Love is real and it is lasting. Not to mention it's just plain adorable.
9. Sonic Happy Hour
Because who doesn't like half priced soft drinks when you need it the most??
8. Coming Home to Roommates
This makes me thankful that I have amazing friends to share stories with and laugh with, no matter what kind of day i'm having. They always make me smile and definitely improve my day.
7. Quoting Anything Andy Samberg
Whether it's the "Threw it ground" video, Lonely Island, Hot Rod, etc., it always seems to make us laugh, thus improving our day.
6. Hearing a Song that matches your mood
Even if your mood is bad or angry, listening to a song that matches how you feel somehow helps heal you or make you better. It's almost like someone else is saying, "I know how you feel. I've been there." And if you're in a ridiculously good mood, well, it's just plain fun. As much as we all like to pretend we hate Ke$ha, who doesn't sing Tik Tok at the top of their lungs with the car windows down?
5. Seeing Jake kick Vienna off of the Bachelor
Oh wait, that hasn't happened yet. But it will make everyone smile when it does happen.
4. Running into someone unexpectedly
It's nice to run into people. Getting to smile and catch up on things always puts me in a better mood.
3.Cookie Dough
Need I say more??
2. Dance Parties
Not only a stress reliever and good exercise, it's a good way to find out who to dance next to when you go to formal so that you look better. ;)
1. Inside Jokes
No one else gets them. No one else laughs. But it makes your friendship with the other people in on the joke, that much better. Thus improving the day.
Sorry this list wasn't all that good. Hopefully I'll have a better one next week.
Also, Happy Groundhog Day! Puxatawnie Phil saw his shadow this morning...looks like six more weeks of winter. I'm okay with it. Means I can wear my new jacket a little longer. :) Night! -xoxo
Jumping the bandwagon
Lately I noticed that a lot of my friends have blogs. The other day, I caught myself reading a bunch of them and it inspired me to start writing a blog. I got all excited about it and then to my dismay, I realized...I have absolutely nothing to write about. I do not have an interesting life and am not really doing anything incredible or mind boggling on a daily basis. I'm actually quite boring and am nothing special. But while processing all these negative and somewhat depressing thoughts about myself, I decided that of all the people who write blogs....not all of them can be interesting and exciting and therefore, neither do I have to be (though I will try as hard as possible). I will write about the things I think and the stuff that happens to me. Sometimes on a good day, something awesome or cool or crazy will happen to me or i'll have some sort of epiphany to write about. Other days like today...i'll not really have anything cool to write about. On that note...i've decided to devote this first blog to one of my most recent obsessions:
Cinnamon Bread
I can't stop eating it. I have eaten four pieces since i've sat down at my computer and started this endeavor. It is lightly sweet and isn't really all that many calories. It's like a desert but it's better for you than ice cream and more filling than a piece of fruit. It's just awesome. It has made many days the past three weeks, good ones. I just love cinnamon bread and will continue eating it until I am tired of it. Which may or may not be soon.
That's all I have for tonight. I need to go to bed so that I can wake up at 9:00 am with my cousin and roommate Kelly. We have been oversleeping lately and it's time to turn that bad habit into a not as bad habit. So here goes. Night. -xoxo ;]
Cinnamon Bread
I can't stop eating it. I have eaten four pieces since i've sat down at my computer and started this endeavor. It is lightly sweet and isn't really all that many calories. It's like a desert but it's better for you than ice cream and more filling than a piece of fruit. It's just awesome. It has made many days the past three weeks, good ones. I just love cinnamon bread and will continue eating it until I am tired of it. Which may or may not be soon.
That's all I have for tonight. I need to go to bed so that I can wake up at 9:00 am with my cousin and roommate Kelly. We have been oversleeping lately and it's time to turn that bad habit into a not as bad habit. So here goes. Night. -xoxo ;]
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